After my emothional "breakdown" yesterday my day acually turned out to be really good. I had lunch with my family, took a powernap, went out to drive with mom, got birthday presents for someone special, picked up Vania, baked a delicious pie and watched cry-movies. Dear John and A Walk To Remember. I actually laughed at the parts where normal people would have cried. I guess I had reach my tear level for one day.
Then today when I woke up i felt like I was suffocating, something was blocking my throat and I couldn't help but to burst into tears. This is really weird but maybe I should just get it all out before I finally move on.
Children are so innocent, so impulsive and I so envy them because they have nothing to worry about at all. At least they don't know that there are things to worry about and that make you feel sad other than your mom not letting you stay out late because she cares about you and wants to keep you safe. I wish I could be a child again just to get that safe and happy feeling. To undo a few thing's I've let happen. Not serious things but as you know an innocent kiss could lead to a lot of heartache and problems. So why not just undo it and live happily ever after.
I'd bettter get ready for my interview. I got the first job, but this one is actually better and they pay twice as much. Private teaching here I come !
